Part two
told by the author
The human society is like the human
body. It contains of many cells - the
family, the school, the kinder garden, the companies, the institutions. And
every one of the cells contains of many atoms-the people.
In the society, just
like in the human body every cell and every atom has its own function, which is
not supposed to be changed, so “the whole one” can continue existing. The
society, just like the body is a reality very different from the realities of
its components and although they are the material it is made from, it has its
own behavior and development.
The society, just
like the body sometimes needs vitamins and a lot of vegetables and fruits, on
order to be vital and healthy.
The society, just
like the body sometimes gets ill and needs medicine.
The society, just
like the human could make a mistake and take the wrong pill, which can easily
turn into poison.
Sometimes, the poison
could be not so strong and the society could not notice it is taking poison
instead of medicine and continue taking it for a long time.
Sometimes, just like
the people, the society notices the bleeding wounds, which appear on its skin
and try to cure them without thinking about what is causing them, where they
come from, without realizing that instead of curing the wounds, it can just
look for their cause and stop their future appearance…
A long time ago, when
people were still not able to read and write, they were singing and telling
stories. That is how they taught the future generations, the new atoms that
appeared to replace the old and tired ones in their functions, everything they
were supposed to know , so the cells could work properly and the society could
live happily and joyfully.
And the society was
growing, running on the grass, laughing and playing. When it became so big,
that its atoms could hardly remember everything they were supposed to know,
they started writing, every single society cell wrote its own DNA, so all the
knowledge could go to the future generations and anything could be forgotten.
The society body was
growing and developing more and more. The medias and Internet appeared and this
way every single cell could get in connection with all the other cells.
But then suddenly
something went wrong. The society was
taking a lot of vitamins, but bleeding wounds started appearing on its skin.
They were becoming more and more - the children and the young people became
aggressive, oftener and oftener someone was getting hurt, they beaten up each
other to death or poke each other with knifes…
And the society got
scared, started to try curing the wounds-the young people were organizing
processions and protests, wanted to take down governments, the scientists were
thinking about getting more psychologists for the kids, they were organizing
campaigns, but wounds still appeared and appeared and nobody realized that
instead of curing them, they could just stop doing what is actually causing
them…
The society didn`t
understand what is happening to its body, it didn`t realize, that the ways that
only knowledge was supposed to use to transmit to the new generations, suddenly
got used by a poison and the cells are
getting confused and they are not doing what they are supposed to or they are
just not doing anything. The ways that only knowledge was supposed to use,
suddenly got used by the sterile amusement…
The old people on trains and stations, in front of the schools,
while waiting for their grandchildren, on the bus stops were saying only one:”
The people became like wolves, the kids started killing each other, because
they don`t see anything that could teach them something good” But their voice
was hidden and nobody listened to them. There is an old story about a kingdom,
where the king commands to kill all the old people, because they are just
eating and can`t work. Only one son, because really loved his father hid him
and didn`t let him get killed. After that, the kingdom had a big problem,
because of the bad weather they lost all the things they could eat and everyone
was going to die from hunger. Then the old man told his son, they could use the
food ants have put under the soil. That is how the kingdom survived. And the
stories are not like the movies, they contain lessons, if just there was
someone to remember them…
Chapter three
Pleased, Elena clicked with her long,
artificial nails on the luxurious lady`s desk. She didn`t have a
lot of new e-mails and the boy who spoke Chinese was supposed to come any
minute. She moved the computer, so it is not disturbing her, pulled up the
shades, she wanted more light in the room, so she can take a better look of
him. Outside, the cars on the left were speeding like always, cars on the right
were jammed.
The new secretary
called and said he arrived. A few seconds later, after a knock on the door,
Nikolay entered and shook her hand. The secretary brought coffee for her and
tea for him.
He was tall, strong,
but not too muscular, with the typical straight shoulders, that always make you feel safe around him.
He was not too
handsome, but looked nice. He didn`t use hair gel. His child-like pure,
chocolate eyes were looking calmly and steady. His lips moved with a special
softness, showing two rows of straight,
white teeth in a sunny smile.
He had something very
warm in him, something prepossessing,
not aggressive, friendly. He wore jeans and a sweater, a coat, not a
jacket and that made very good impression to her.
He was listening and
answering her questions without hurrying up, sometimes he even contemplated for
a while, but it did not seem like his brain worked slowly, on the contrary, it
looked like it is very fast. He was not nervous at all and that surprised her a
little bit. All job applicants are a little bit nervous.
She liked the thought
of having such man around her during the business trips. He looked at her without
any trace of passion in his eyes, she could see, he was kind, but didn`t
undress her with his eyes, didn`t want her. That surprised her too. She hired
him immediately.
She followed him with
eyes through the window until he hid behind the other people on the bus
station. She thought he is an interesting young man. Only the time could show
how he will turn out to be.
She called the
secretary and ordered more coffee. She had to start drinking less coffee and
she knew that, but at this moment she was not in the right mood for that.
She didn`t have
anything to do, she checked her e-mails again, asked all the employees if they
need her for something and left the office.
The orange Maserati was waiting for her in front of the building. She was happy she had to go the left way, not the jammed right way.
She started the car
and enjoying the way people reacted when they saw her car, drove to the city
center.
She had her finger nails
and toe nails fixed, she went to the hairdresser, spoiled herself with a
massage and waxed her arms and legs, although she still didn`t need to.
With Stefan, they met
straight in the restaurant, where they had dinner. He was tired, he has been
very busy the whole day.
She thought that the
waitress is too slow and started screaming at her. He just looked at the girl,
trying to say he is sorry with his eyes and without letting Elena see it, left
a huge tip when they were leaving.
When they got home, their child was already asleep and Stefan couldn`t hide that he is very
disappointed. He always wanted to have dinner at home, but never managed to
convince her. She was not impressed she couldn`t see the kid, hurried to get
ready for bed and met him in the bedroom lustfully lying stretched on the bed.
She was an unusual
woman. Some time ago, she had really loved Stefan. After that, using the power
she had over him, she officially informed him, that she has a lover too and
that is normal, because all her girlfriends have one.
She was 20 when she
met him for the first time. He already had his own company and was making
really good money, and she couldn`t not notice
the God-like handsome young man, who got off the expensive car.
He was so shy and
cooped up, that she couldn`t get him as easily as she hoped. But after a while,
her persistence and sincerity, she was really in love with him at that time,
took over and he fell in love like a fool.
She became his wife,
got pregnant and started impatiently waiting for the future heir to come to
this world. At that time, it is not known how she met her new friends, they
were all rich men`s wives and with a great pleasure they started leading her
into their own world. Somewhere on the way there she became cold both to her husband
and her child.
Stefan was used to
being lonely. In the small town, where
he was born, grew up and spent not a few years, the kids didn`t like the rich children.
Until 1989 he had a normal life, but after that for a really short time his
father made a lot of money. The other kids started mocking him, beating him up,
nobody wanted to play with him or even
talk to him. He was always alone on the last desk at school, and at home he
read a lot of books from his grandmother`s library and was having fun on the
new computer his father bought him.
He didn`t like going out and meeting people. At the beginning
it was really very hard for him, but day by day he got used to being lonely and
accepted the loneliness.
His mother really
enjoyed playing the part of a rich man`s wife and considered not worthy to talk
to her son and listen to his problems. For her it was much more important how to
arrange the new and expensive furniture, what she will wear when she gets out,
will her neighbours and friends like all the new things she bought. To say the
truth, she was exactly the same before 1989 too, she just didn`t have so much
money at that time and couldn`t buy all the things she wanted.
His father preferred
sleeping with his many lovers instead of sleeping with his own wife and during the short time
he spent with his son, he was telling
him all about the lovers, with even the smallest details, trying to make
him more masculine.
The boy, on the
opposite, was blushing and like he wanted to get his father angry , was
becoming more and more closed.
He was 16 when his father`s company grew so much,
that they needed to move to Sofia.
At school he sit alone on the last desk again. Here, the kids were not
mocking him and beating him up, nobody knew him and they just didn`t notice the
awkward , skinny teenager with long arms and legs and sad blue eyes.
But one day, Lora
noticed how expensive is the car they drove him to school with and in the break,
gracefully walking between the other kids and the desks, she came to him, sit
on desk table in front of him, put her sculptured legs on the seat and started
talking to him.
He blushed, was
looking and couldn`t see this amazingly beautiful girl, was feeling and yet
couldn`t actually smell the expensive fragrance she used, was listening and
couldn`t actually hear what she is talking about. He couldn`t see, couldn`t
hear, nothing around existed for him, he felt like dreaming. His lower lip went
slack and he was just sitting, looking at the girl, beautiful like a vision,
not able to understand what she says, not to react, just looking like an idiot
and hoping to wake up if he is dreaming.
During the class,
they asked him and he got a two, still couldn`t realize what is happening.
The girl started
coming oftener and oftener.
The dream-like
feeling disappeared and he was falling in love deeper and deeper. He was
falling in love the way only an young man, who has never loved and never been
loved before could fall in love when a creature like that girl starts paying so
much attention to him .
She was listening to
him, talking to him, sometimes she was bending over him so close to his face
with her big neck opening, that he could almost see her breasts and got so
embarrassed, that his eyes were running away, wherever it is , they just
couldn`t look at her.
She visited him at
home, dressed, well, better to say undressed, trying to seduce him, but he was
so embarrassed and never tried to touch her. She was getting angry because he
is so awkward and stupid.
On a school trip she
got him drunk and started kissing him. He didn`t push back.
On the next day he
woke up next to her, his head felt extremely heavy and a he had a strange,
inexplicable feeling that something was missing in his chest.
He immediately knew
something really bad happened. He couldn`t realize what exactly at first, but
it was a heavy, intrusive feeling. He took a look around and knew what it was.
The most beautiful girl from school was lying next to him, shamelessly naked
and he suddenly felt really very sad, because this is what love was supposed to
be – a drunk night and a naked girl next to you. They officially became
boyfriend and girlfriend. Love is supposed to be wonderful, it must be
wonderful, and he couldn`t get away of the intrusive feeling that it is
something low-down, dirty, indecent.
She introduced him to
her friends and for the first time since so long, he had friends and was going
out with them and in order to keep them was ready to say things he didn`t mean,
and to make compromise after compromise, so he wouldn`t be alone anymore and he
would have a girlfriend and friends.
After a while, the
dream-like world he was living in, started looking real. He realized that
talking to Lora is as much meaningless as talking to his mother. But he just
couldn`t stop loving her, he hoped, being the one with much more wisdom of the
two, he will manage to help her develop, to open her eyes, to make her a decent
human.
He was cutting away
sleeping with her, couldn`t get rid of the feeling it is something wrong, he
was getting angry with his self and could never admit it, but he didn`t
actually like sleeping with her. It made him feel used and smashed.
He graduated from
high school and wanted to continue his education, but his parents didn`t allow
him, studying was a waste of time, he had to work.
His father gave him
money to start and at 18 he already had
his own company.
Again his father
bought him a flat in the city center and he started living there with Lora, she
insisted a lot on that. At the beginning he was making enough money just to
live luxuriously and to satisfy her whims. With the time, he made more and more
money. He was 20 when one day he came
home earlier from work and caught her mocking
him on the phone with a friend, explaining she hardly stands him but she
is with him because he has money. He made her go away of the flat and didn`t
want to see her anymore. Their friends tried to convince him to accept her
again and he said he didn`t want to see them anymore too. Suddenly he felt
alone. Completely alone and lonely.
For some time he
stayed at home read a lot, the books, especially “Jean-Christophe”by Romain Rolland helped him a lot. It felt
like psychotherapy, like talking to the kind of a good friend he has never had.
When he finished the book, suddenly he felt very lonely again, like someone he
loved left and everything around looks empty. He felt reborn, new, cleaner too,
like for a long time he has been crying on a god friend`s shoulder and because
he cried everything he had inside, he feels better .
He started working again and he was working as
much as he could, so he doesn`t have time to be alone with his thoughts. He
bought a small apartment next to the office and moved there.
Elena brought him
back to life, made him feel loved and needed and he really needed to be needed.
He was very scared she could leave him some day, he knew love doesn`t last forever.
He adored his son. Sometimes he was sneaking
out of the office and played with him with hours. He would love to leave
everything and dedicate all his time to the child, but that way he couldn`t buy
Maseratis fo Elena and she wouldn`t be happy, so most of the time he was
working really hard.
